My Gray February
It’s a gray February 2009 for me.
Starting on the 1st week, I got the push from top management to complete leaflet artworks just because an idiot’s complaint by email and copied the big boss.
“Oh OK deh!” I thought. My fault! Because I didn’t push the drafter in our global artwork studio to work fast.
After the “talk: “Get this thing done today!” I decided to revise the artwork from my own file. And “OMG”, I lost the files. All of them.
“Huhu… God! How could it be like this?” I cried deep inside.
And so, I prepared the artwork all over again. “Prepare” means checking and editing the text, adjusting the layout to fit with the profile, etc.
After sending the artworks and waiting for the response from the drafter, day 1 of my overtime work resulted in nothing but another artwork to be revised. Well, at least I could still go home and not spend a night in the office.
Day 2, I came late to the office. I was allured again by the big boss. “Get everything done by this week!” he said. I just noded.
I could complete 1st artwork on this day, but for half way to 2nd artwork completion. I gave up because I couldn’t find the way to solve missing “fi” characters every time my file pasted into the studio file. So, before going home, I called again the drafter (Robin) and he taught to try to inactivate “standard ligatures”.
Day 3. I opened the amended artwork from the drafter. Thank God! What Robin taught me worked well. Still, minor mistakes needed to be revised. But at last, I could complete the 2nd artwork just in time. (”Just in time” means 30 minutes before working hours over :D)
Well, honestly, I thought the missery over in the next week. The fact? Nightmares continue to haunt me. Ha ha…
On Monday, I had to face performance appraisal. Not with good result. But what made me upset was “a topic” which my boss aroused. Why I got so upset? Because somehow I feel that her judgment was concluded subjectively with an example from one case.
I said nothing to defend myself. It was useless anyway, right? Although one of my friend said that I should defend myself while I can.
But who can change one’s mind if that one already has subjective judgement. It’s not about the work, it’s about the person. (Gee… I miss mbak Ade very much! My sweetest and good ex-boss)
Moreover, I don’t give a damn on the judgment since I’ll be out of the situation in couple of months.
Starting the month of February with gray stories, I really hope I can have a good ending, especially on my side business (he he…).
I’m tired!
Many pending documents I have to submit.
And I’m loosing my mind! I don’t know what is my job priority again. I…. I….
*Uke is sobbing her tears* (bohong deh! rugi ah nangisin kerjaan)
February 9, 2009